Deer in Headlights

Having never been someone who was comfortable taking the front stage, I had no difficulty to disappear into the background. I managed it for a big part of my childhood. But as i grew, I began having opinions. I saw and heard of strong , confident people and wanted to be one of them. When i searched for a way to do so, I realized that these people never had a problem to speak their mind, even if initially, they were standing alone. Being a leader or attempting to do something that not many others chose to do, was a position of isolation. Trying to be different from everyone was sometimes just as lonely as being left behind. But once you make your Isolation your solitude, somehow the 'being okay with it', puts you in a place where you feel like a Deer in Headlights. (some kinda irony i guess). Somehow it has happened, that being alright with being yourself and choosing unconventional paths....makes you a creature of curious human behaviour.